its hard to believe that one month has passed already, it seems like just five min. ago i had a massive stomach and cravings for gummy bears. now i am holding a beautiful baby girl. i still can't believe that i am a mother. i keep praying that i will do well and that i will be someone that she can look up to. I really couldn't ask for more from Stephen he takes her at night so that i can sleep, he will get up with her, change her, and feed her, he does everything and doesn't even complain.
we went to NH a few weeks ago we spent Christmas there, she was just three weeks old. Mom and Dad couldn't get enough of her, not to mention Sarah and the boys we went to the Christmas eve service and Sarah just wanted to show her off. it was scary flying back because i was all alone and i had her car seat with me, my arm was on fire the next day; but it was all worth it.
she is growing up so fast... she's already pushing herself up trying to crawl, she has the sweetest smile! just waiting for her dads dimples to come in. her hair is starting to change to a dark brown, it was black when she was born.. her eyes are lighting up too i think that she will start to see colors and our faces soon. i really couldn't ask for more.
I start school next month. I'm nervous about leaving her, i know that Stephen is more then capable of taking care of her, but a part of me is sad that i won't be around all the time for the first year of her life, i just hope i don't miss her first step or the first time she bops her head. gosh i will miss the majority of her teething.. i can't say that's such a shame..
I didn't think that i could love anyone like this outside of Stephen, it's indescribable i mean there are times when all i want to do is sleep with out interruption but i really do melt when i hear her gurgle or see her smile thank you Lord for this amazing gift.
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