Well, we have been married not that long.. now expecting our first baby! i am starting to feel the baby move around and desperately want to know what it is that we are having.
I can't deny that i am excited about stepping forward and the expectancy of being a parent yet at the same time, i don't think that i have felt this lonely or this overwhelmed in a long time. I feel so unproductive, i feel invisible, unneeded. it sucks, what makes it worst is that i cant put these feelings into viable words.. I'm hoping that i will get a jump start soon.
Never the less, I can't be thankful enough for the man that I have, sometimes i feel some what adequate and i think that has something to do with our age difference. Yet i have loved starting my new life with him i am waiting to see what we make of all this.
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